AFTER ONE MONTH FROM THE PREVIOUS POST, THE O LEVELS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!

Well, I shall not dwell on the papers since it's over already. Some quite straightforward, some quite tricky but overall, still alright. I'm afraid that the moderation will pull my marks down. Nevermind, next year then worry. Haha. Enjoy the holidays firstttttt. Weeeeeeee~

Starting to find job tomorrow at shopping centres or wherever. I need to work. I want more money, I want to shop, I want to revamp my wardrobe. Very sick of all my clothes... Oh yes, I packed my cupboard just now. Threw away all the notes, worksheets, revision stuffs, practically almost everything except textbooks, TYS and files. Going to pass all those books to cousin. Now my table is super super super clean... No books, almost nothing except for stationeries and stuffs. Love it manzx! Hahaha.

Since now the Os are over, I've got many many many stuffs to do. I need to see the doctor because I'm suffering from massive hair loss like for so long alredy and my hair is super super dry. Maybe suffering from some weird illnesses? LOL. I need to get a manicure/pedicure also. Finally I can have pretty pretty nails...  I am going to get new clothes too. I want more dresses/tops/bottoms and my shoes. I need a new pair of flats, wedges and heels. I need alot of things. Hahaha.

Okay, going off now. Byeeeeeee.

Once again, THE DAMN O'S ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!

End of prelims, got back our results today. I was utterly disappointed with all the results that I got back especially for Chemistry & E-maths. I got a pathetic 62 marks for my Chemistry when I did study/memorise/mug/concentrate. Yes, I admit I really did study for this paper but I don't know why I still scored so badly. It's demoralising & depressing to know that no matter how much you worked hard, the results will still be a disappointing one.

E-maths was a mortal blow (literally) to me also. I don't deny the fact that I'm actually quite pleased with Paper 1 but I know I can still score much much much better but as for Paper 2, I'm extremely disappointed with it. A borderline pass, very borderline. I don't know why so many of my classmates scored sooooo much better than me & I can't. Felt inferior & demoralised. I know how to do most of the easy questions, excluding those which are really tough/I don't know how to do them. Worst still, tons of careless mistakes which could really pull my marks up one or more grade. Heart-wrenching. No, I'm not exaggerating. It's really heart-wrenching to see marks not given to you because of a minor careless mistakes.

My only hope for maths is gone. No, I will not give up, not at all. I MUST push myself even harder to score even better for the Os. What matters the most is the Os, not the prelims. I know I'm going to get about 20points & above for my L1R4/L1R5 which is really lousy but I MUST not be defeated by the results. I MUST even work harder to score even better results for the Os.

As for Physics, I'm actually quite pleased with it because I know I didn't put in much effort in studying this paper & yet I still managed to pass which is considered quite lucky already. Now, I see logarithms, differentiation, integration, partial fraction, trigo identities all coming into the picture. Finally, most dreaded and worst subject of all, A-maths. Expectedly, I failed. What amused me was that my Paper 1 actually pass which was really a big miracle because Paper 1 was tough and I failed very badly for my Paper 2 which was not that tough. I'm always the opposite of the others. I really don't know what to do with my A-maths. I'm really contended just to get a C6 for A-maths for the Os. For this prelim, I really did work much harder than other exams on A-maths & I did many TYS questions which were quite okay for me. TYS is so much easier than the prelims. Hopefully, O level would be easier too.

I have no eyes/no face to look at my English/Combined Humanities/F&N paper the following week. I have a feeling I would really do very badly for it. Mom told me before the prelims that if I don't score well for the prelims, I SHALL NOT BE ABLE TO USE THE COMPUTER AT ALL. Period.

Wonder why I am still able to blog now? Because I have not told her my results yet and I promise this will be the last time I am going to blog. I guess I will still be able to use fb/check e-mails/read blogs during the weekends after I completed my revision. Yes, I'm grounded too but I still managed to go out today. Haha, it'll be the last time. I promise, except for getting my daily necessities or other valid reasons.

One more month before the Os. I OUGHT TO TELL MYSELF THIS.  ANG ZI TONG, PLEASE WORK FREAKING HARD FOR THE Os, ONE MONTH LEFT. HAVE NO MORE TIME TO WASTE ANYMORE. PLEASE WAKE UP FROM YOUR DREAM AND FACE REALITY. ONE MORE MONTHHHH, WORK EXTREMELY HARD PLEASE AND AFTER THE EXAMS, YOU CAN PLAY FOR AS MUCH AS YOU LIKE. YOU DO NOT WANT TO RUIN YOUR OWN FUTURE. MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG...

Okay, side-track abit. Got my gladiators inspired/or is it some sort of gladiator, I don't know, but anyway, I love my new pair of gladiators. Hehe, many said it looked nice on me & it's very unique too. Seldom see people wearing this type of gladiators. Got my high-waist belts too. Yay, am going to buy more dresses after the Os, but before that I need to go to the gym more often. Slim down, shape up. I'm now 47kg, (maybe I don't look like, guess I look heavier than that right?) targetting to be less than 45kg.

Am going to do my E-maths already. Bye. I really love maths right now.

Yay, no school tomorrow because it's the Chinese Prelims. Oh yes, I've dropped Chinese because I scored a distinction. I didn't even expect that at all but still very happy. Hehe.

Yesterday was O levels English Oral. I screwed up very badly & I paused, stuttered, many grammar mistakes & I think I added singlish in too. It was a very tough one. & I was the last candidate to leave the whole hall because my group was so slow. I don't know why those people in front are talking so much. I think they're just blabbering craps. & I don't like my invigilators. They don't seem friendly at all. Sigh. Now I can only depend on my written papers.

Prelims started today & it was the first time that it was held in the hall. Very tense atmosphere as you can see all the graduating classes scribbling on their papers. It was very very cold also. The two big ass fans & all the fans around the hall were on and my papers kept flying here & there. English Paper 1 was relatively alright but for SS, SBQ was a terror & hopefully SEQ can pull up my marks. I just wrote craps for SBQ. Blah.

Oh, took height & weight the day before. The machine is so not accurate. I don't think I'm 1.65m, think I'm shorter than that & much heavier though. I think girls being tall at a disadvantage lor. No matter how skinny or how thin you are, you're still considered big-size because of your bone structure & that you're tall. Big-size=muscular, fat. Sometimes, I'd rather be short like around 1.55m like that so that I'm not so big-size. But, sometimes I want to be very very tall like 1.75m? LOL. & of course, I want to get skinnier. I envy those who are so skinny. Those who don't have to bother about the clothes they wear because they don't have fats. Those who don't have to care what they eat because no matter how much they eat, they're just so skinnnnnnyyyyy. I meant skinny & not slim.

Friends think that I'm less than my actual weight & they cannot see that I'm actually so heavy. LOL. I admit I'm heavy lah, my bones are very huge especially my hip bone which I hate the most. Even my mom says that they're freaking huge. Sigh.

Okay, gotta go. Bye.

Sighhhh. Chinese O level results are releasing very very very soon? Like on Tues or Wed? Ohmygod. I guess I won't be able to score a distinction. I'm prepared to hear B3/B4 for my results. Hah, but I am so going to drop Chinese. I'm not going to retake anymore at the end of the year. It's just a waste of time retaking it. My parents are for it and my mom is going to write a letter to the school to appeal for me to drop Chinese. I'd rather concentrate on other subjects like CH and A-maths to score well in them. I need these subjects to get into my desired course so I'd rather work hard for them instead on a subject which I really think there's no point studying at all. LOL. No, I don't hate Chinese. I just don't see the point in studying so hard for it yet still not getting a distinction, so I must well drop it.

Okay, I'm going to complete my A-maths Pass with Distinction book tonight. At least complete those I know. Concentrate on E-maths & Physics tomorrow. My Chemistry is getting on the track but I don't understand a single shit in Physics right now. Damn! I failed my recent Physics test on Magnetism very very very badly. I guess it's the lowest in class? I always get mixed up with those different hand rule & stuffs. Yet, there's nobody to help me except my teacher.

2 more months to the dreaded big Os. Got no time to waste. Have to buck up in my weaker subjects. Bye.

Life been very very hectic for me currently. Needa complete alot alot of homework/revision/TYS by this week. It's really ALOT. Okay, no choice because of the Os. Many many many many things happened over the past few weeks. I don't know what to say. Sighhhhhhhh. I guess I shall just concentrate on my studies & chiong for the Os. Other stuffs, I shall just ignore because it ain't concerning my bloody business anyway. Given up on everything already.

Okay, am going to end off already because I want to do my work & sleep. Byeeeee.